April 17, 2024
Trey is Depressed | Treehouse Plus 24

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Welcome inside the treehouse, but this
is treehouse US, which means you are
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deeper inside the treehouse. Thank you
for your five dollars. We appreciate it.
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Normally the treehouse is full of stupid. But I think we've we've been
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presented with a challenge today and I
feel good about it. The challenge is,
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can we make Tray feel better?
Can we take an almost fifty year
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old AA RP carrying man, single
man suffering from anxiety, depression and a
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general malaise, if you will,
can we make him feel better? Tray?
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I think it's important that we start
this episode with me asking the age
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old question. Okay, no,
but you did just make me laugh though,
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because you know I when you did
the tray you know aa arp,
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I'm like, and I guess the
tray aa a a ARP. I was
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gonna say, it's the same thing. When we're on the same page,
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I was gonna say the same thing
was I thought you were just putting it
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out there off the jump it's like
tray aa And I was like, okay,
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well that was a weird way to
start it. And then you hit
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the RP and I'm like, okay, he didn't say the other part and
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then traded it for us, Like
you know one of those doctors that have
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a bunch of letters after their names. It's just an abbreviation for fuck up
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and old. Yeah. I think
if if I if I went to your
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office building and I'm walking into Trey
Trenholm, Comma A A A A A
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r P. Yeah, I'm gonna
look around to see if there's a different
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door, Maybe someone with with a
few less letters, Maybe something with like
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a with a a picture of a
of a sunny sky in the ceiling tile,
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just anything other than A A A
A A r P after Trey Trenholm.
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So Alcoholics Anonymous Association of Retired People
and Anxiety. Yeah, yeah,
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I I just figure there's somebody that's
in A A and A ar P,
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Like that's the guy I want to
advice from. I thought, I thought
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the thing that was gonna make Trey
feel better is the fact that he is
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in a ARP. Therefore he's got
the discounts to look forward to. It's
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what keeps him going, gets those
early birds specials, that really gets him
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out of bed in the morning.
I'm telling you, it's uh, I
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want to I want somebody that's an
AA and AARP to be like, hey,
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here's the deal man. Don't don't
over drink this, but if you
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do, here's the best place to
sleep. This is the best bar bathroom
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to sleep it. Hey, I
would say wedding for the AARP member.
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The best prescription drug plan I've I've
had, Like, yeah, it's a
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it's better than anything. So if
you want cheaper prescription drugs, it's like
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automatic twenty percent off. Yeah.
But I mean, like I had,
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like it's like gold gold r X
or whatever. I had the same thing.
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Yeah, and uh, it wasn't
bad, but the art things better.
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Yeah. I think it's twenty percent
off of like the lowest price they
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can get on like good RX.
And then they not another twenty percent.
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It's fantastic. And then and you
know, I knew it was I knew
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I was getting old. Like I've
said this before. I was. I
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saw the magazine and Luke Perry was
on it. Uh, and I was
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like, yeah, making AARP cool. Yeah, I was like, we
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I'm old. Buddy Dylan's on the
cover of AARB magazine. Yeah, but
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funny funny interestingly enough, Brandon's not
I know, and Andre could have been
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on it when she started the show. Yeah, I think she was an
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ARP member as she was playing a
high school student. I think you're right.
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She was four years younger than the
Walsh dad. I mean, but
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yeah, well that is one positive
with our generation is we're fucking agent better
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than that's trade. Fifty years old. He was Wilford Brimley and flow from
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Alice. It really is an interesting
time to be alive. Uh and and
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and because of that, like I
said, and I'm serious when I say,
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I want to see if there's something
we can do to make you feel
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better. And I don't know if
that's even possible. Maybe just talking about
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some stuff, will you know,
will just ease your conscience or your your
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your physical self. I don't.
I don't know because for those of you,
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because I don't know how it works, Like how does it work?
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Like what is your brain telling you? Like I don't. I have anxiety,
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so I know my brain tells me
I'm dying. That's what that does.
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Depression, I don't know how that
works. I'll start with this.
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Uh. I vividly remember my first
episode of depression. I was ten years
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old. I was in fifth grade
at the sitting in the back of the
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classroom. I couldn't verbalize now,
but I bet I called it, you
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know, later on, I call
it the overwhelming wave of sadness. And
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you said no, I said later
on, later when I could, when
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I could articulate it. Oh yeah, I just imagine the note home to
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your mom from the teacher is very
eloquent, also sad. There's a little
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he's a little dark, but he's
got a great vocabulary. He's gonna be
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a gifted writer, terrible drunk,
gifted writer. But are all gifted writers
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terrible drugs like that. That's Stephen
King drunk hit by a car. So
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that's a special talent. H And
So I say this, and and and
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it's not part of it is childhood
influences and everything else, but and and
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this sounds really dramatic to say,
and and it, but it's it is
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the truth, which is I doubt
there has been a day that has gone
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by since I was ten years old
that I did not think of either killing
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myself or just my demise. Really
every day every day. Wow, Okay,
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And over the last couple of weeks, it's just it's gotten bad.
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Okay, yeah, I Yeah.
My heart goes out to you because I
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don't know how. That's one of
those things where you friends and family,
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kid doing anything about it, right, I mean like even words of wisdom
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or reassurance or none of that would
work. Right. That's so if it
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did, then this wouldn't be the
problem that it is in the world.
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You know, it doesn't hurt.
Yeah, to try no listen, it
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was I can. I confided this
and Dan, you know, with Dan
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yesterday, and it's the first person
I had I had vocalize it, to
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verbalize it, whatever you want to
say, and and and it was it
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was helpful. It's it probably has
started with I feel like Roy Firestone on
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ESPN, I was wondering, who's
break attention? Because sorry, I got
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it. I got it. What
a great reference. Thank you, You're
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welcome. That's why we do this. And I'd like to go ahead check
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off the box that it would that
this is at least help me, or
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actually, maybe I shouldn't check the
box that it's helping. I should check
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the box Underneathan says, well,
it's not hurting. So yeah, it
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probably started a couple of weeks ago
when i've i've I've started noticing, you
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know, uh days he's getting older. Yeah, h and m h it's
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yeah, I'm sorry, it's okay. Is it a combination of things or
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it was like the thinking about one
of the biggest things that that hit me
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is daisies old. I said,
my mom's old, My mom's old.
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Oh the family I got. Yeah, Well, if I can be so
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bold, that's not the only family. Yeah, I'm younger than you,
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so the odds are in my favor
that I'll be around long after you're gone.
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How is that reassuring? That's great
for you. No, it's reassuring
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me because because about his demise has
me thinking about Trade's demise, and it
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also has to be thinking about my
demise. Moment, that was very complimentary.
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You should never be a therapist.
Yeah, there's a reason why there
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are no letters. So long after
you i'm no longer by client, I'll
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still be here. I'll still be
charging you. Uh No, And in
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in somewhat seriousness, I mean that, Yeah, I realized that's that's your
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only family on paper, But there
are there are other family members in your
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life, and that's not always an
apparent thing. It's not always every day
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type of thing. Yeah, because
I'm twenty two hundred miles away. It's
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not like I can, you know, jump through your front door with a
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battering ram and give you a hug
that you reluctantly accept. I can,
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Yeah, I mean, I'm not
going to kick in your door. I'm
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assuming you live in a white neighborhood. So I'm just gonna I'm gonna poltelykno,
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he's he's he's yeah, he's he's
he's white adjacent. Okay, don't
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worry. We know plenty of police
officers that will help you kick in Trey's
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door. Yes, I want I
want their help. I don't want them
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to show up as I'm doing it. So anyway, everyone's getting old year
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old dog is all yeah, and
it's just it it just I think that
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is what just started. And and
sometimes it is just one of those things
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that it it starts small and then
it just snowballs and then it's it's just
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uh and you know, honestly,
then it just it's like everything and and
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so then that leads to wow,
I've made really bad decisions in my life,
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and I'm you know, it just
just all of a sudden and it's
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like fuck y, and you know, and then that's what it's like and
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then it just starts of you know, ah, the real morose just of
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you know, it's probably a very
sound and logical thing that you know at
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the very latest, you know,
seventy five that I just killed myself because
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I'm I'm gonna be alone and uh, I figure I have like one more
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round of dogs left, and then
I don't. I then I started thinking
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about the anxiety of you know,
what age do you start waking up if
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you're alone, and then you you
know, you worry that something could happen,
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and then you're gonna you know,
no one's gonna find you for days.
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See, that's in my anxiety.
That's when I that's my that's in
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my panic attacks. That's and then
I think by myself, yeah that was
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my panic attacks. I'm like,
they're gonna find me here. And then
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it was just crazy. I mean, crazy shit starts going through your head
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like I wouldn't and this is no
bullshit. When I was telling them because
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that I would get them back to
back, so I had that the rare
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uh this is before I started therapy, like I would get them because they
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last about twenty minutes, so I'd
get them for twenty minutes and it would
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stop for about four minutes and I'm
like, oh my attack, okay,
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yeah, and then it would start
again and it would be all day long.
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So I would dress and I don't
know if you've done this before,
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I would dress like if they find
me, this is what I want to
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wear. What was like, are
we talking like a suit or I just
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want to I just just know I
I don't want to Jolas and I was
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like eight, I don't know if
he just wanted to be comfortable. No,
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I just I would have like a
nice you know, if I was
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living in California, it's a nice
T shirt. And I would have my
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favorite blanket and I would have my
jeans, I have my shoes on.
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Like this is like just because I'm
I'm by myself and I'm in l A
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right, so everybody I know is
here in Dallas, so you're not going
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to get to me in time.
So I wanted to be like when they
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get me, like, oh,
he looks great. That's like what that's
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in my head that I'm not even
missing. I'm not even bullshiting in my
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head. I want to that's a
good look. He's dressed well. As
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they're taking me out of the thing. So that happens to me. It's
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like, you know, I when
when I was living by myself, I'm
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like, well that I don't I'm
not gonna be able to call anybody,
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right because I'm I'm dead, So
uh yeah, even dead I would be
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okay with. It's the what if
you have a stroke and you can't move
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and you're stuck in bed for three
days? That is the anxiety that just
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absolutely, you know, tears me
up. Yeah, mine is uh yeah,
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mine's being dying alone? Was mine? Well, and that's you know
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that again, and that goes to
the greater thing of just being alone and
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everything else. And so it's like
yesterday, I'm like, I'm walking Daisy
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and then all of a sudden,
I am just sitting on the curb in
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the middle of the street just sobbing
and and and and really there's no catalyst
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or anything else. And then I
go to work and then I get an
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anxiety attack and that lasts, you
know, six hours, and I'm like,
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my brain is actively trying to kill
me. And then I'm pretty sure
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that Meta is trying to kill me
too, because for some reason, now
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in my algorithm, every fucking video
I see is a goddamn police dog's funeral.
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Oh god, oh no, that's
not right. Fucking Zuckerberg, man,
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jesus, did you post something somewhere
like saying that meta or Facebook and
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Instagram are horrible? Did you?
Did you say it out loud and your
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microphone picked it up. You can't
say it out loud. You can't say
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it. We're all actually screwed.
Now at this point, I'm probably gonna
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start getting him now. Yeah,
that's a. Yeah, that's a.
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So there is there is a fix
for that trade. What you have to
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do is you have to seek out
opposite content porn. Yeah. So if
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you're getting too many police dog funeral
stuff, which is let me go to
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pornhub, gut wrenching. You don't
even need to go to pornhub, which
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is very difficult to do still in
Texas, I think. So what you
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do is instead just go to your
Instagram search and just just type in you
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know, uh, big ass titties, yeah, and just see what comes
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up and then click on some and
then that way the algorithm thinks, oh,
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this is what he's looking for.
Or it doesn't even have to be
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that. It can be cooking videos, just something besides the really sad stuff.
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I get a lot of Gordon Ramsey
videos in between the dog funeral videos.
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Okay, yeah, you have to
be careful because that's a The Gordon
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Ramsey thing is a double edged sword. On one hand, it could be
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fun and funny to watch him scream
at people, uh for feeding him dog
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food. The downside is there's also
the thing where people will send him ugly
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photos or photos of ugly food that
then he criticizes. And some of those
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plates of food are so sad they
may want you. They look like depression
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on a paper plate. I like
that. That may not help them.
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I like the guy who they take
the fast food too, and they're like,
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can you make something gourmet out of
this? Wait? Which one that?
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So there's the New York deli guy
or the Asian guy, the master
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chef, the Iron Chef. I
can't think of his name, or deli
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guy, okay, because they also
do that he was I think he was
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the original Iron chef. And I'm
drawing a blank on his name. And
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he's amazing and his from only the
strong. No, he's the chairman in
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my back and he does that same
thing. The guy, will you know
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his kid will bring him like Chick
fil A, and all of a sudden,
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yeah, thirty minutes later, you
have this amazing five star meal and
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he's deep breaded the chicken and he's
done. That's exactly what it always takes
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the Chick fil A off of it. What I'd like to see that guy
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do is take a plate full of
tray, hand it to the chef and
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say, makes up the gourmet out
of this bier ship. I did h
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when I can you just make a
sandwich? Can you just make something that
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Panera would be happy to have on
the menu. I'm just edible. I
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was tying these du when I went
to my therapist, and I was,
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you know, it's harder to tell
somebody like that's what your thoughts are,
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even though even though that's you know
what I mean, even though they're a
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therapist and their license to listen to
your ship. I did have my She
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was great, she was still as
a dear friend. But when I was
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like, you know, I'm just
worried about, you know, how they're
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gonna find me and all that,
and she goes, and I couldn't dispute
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that she goes, what do you
care? You'll be dead? And I
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go, yeah, but okay,
yep, no, let's she fucking nailed
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it. Yeah, I mean like
I can't do anything after the fact.
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so that started to help the mindset for
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me. I'm like, Okay,
fuck it, it's gonna happen, and
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uh yeah, I look good and
I'm just gonna be right here and then
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that's it. That's it. And
that's where I would say the where depression
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the problem is is yeah, and
then your depression kicks in and said,
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fuck it, let's do it now, let's do it now. Yeah,
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I got it. That's what that's
the difference, right, Yeah, Okay,
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that makes it. I mean you
I don't understand tright you AA depression,
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anxiety. I don't know how you
were not a comic or a novelist.
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I don't know how you. Tray
went way worse. He did radio
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for about fifteen years. Yeah,
entertainment. Okay, you're in entertainment for
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fifteen years. There you go.
Being in radio RAJ at the level at
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which we were is very much like
being a stand up comic and a novelist
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at the same time. Yeah,
okay, then that's perfect. That makes
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sense. Now, like I'm just
trying to get the uh, the understanding
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of the trend home. It makes
so like, now you make so much
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sense to me, Like now I
do want to come over and just give
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you a hug because now this makes
so much more fucking sense. I'm like,
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I would see you like i would
see you out and about and very
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well put together, and I'm like, that guy's got his ship together and
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everything, Like I would see it
uptown Pub. You come in like to
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get some I think you guys trade
it off like napkins and fucking footh surface
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stuff all the time. And so
i'd see you there and he's i mean,
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always dressed really well, and I'm
like, you know, got the
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g he's a GM here and he's
got you know, when he had when
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you had drove all this stuff.
And I'm like, man, that guy's
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got his ship together. And now
I know you're a total fuck up.
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This is fantastic. Now we're gonna
get along so much better. This is
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a mutual understanding, uh, mutual
anxiety and mental mental health issues. It
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is it is a point of bonding
for me. I would see trade uptown
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Pub and I'm like, this dude
is knocking white privilege out the park.
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And he is killing the white privilege
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Yeah, but you know this is
he wasn't drinking. He just would
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come in like they would, you
know, hey, we ran out of
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this over there, can we grab
this real quick? Or or he would
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bring something to them that they'd run
out of. It was mostly kitchen stuff,
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but he'd walk in and he's,
you know, dressed really well.
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You got the I would see like
slacks and button down and all the all
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that jazz, and I was like, come in and they didn't. He
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didn't have to say a word.
They knew who he was. There was
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the ship. He would stop and
talk to me, make a little small
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talk, and then he was off
doing the gym thing. And I'm like,
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that dude has it together. And
today I've made a new a closer
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friend in Trey. We we've turned
a new leaf. You are just a
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raging, fucking mess and this is
great. Uh So why Embraceyly, We're
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gonna be such good friends. Now
we'll go to ball games and cry together.
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I'm assuming you're in Kansas City watching
a Royals game, Like yeah,
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oh yeah, and that was the
fun, like the fact that you said
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that. When I went to do
Kansas City last week to perform, they
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had me do Fox Morning TV or
whatever, yep, and it was Opening
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Day and they're like, are you
gonna join us at the Royals game?
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And on their TV, I went, well, you guys are gonna lose.
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I go, I'm from this pesky
place where we just won the World
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Series, so we got to work
on your PR skills when you go to
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They laughed and they went, oh, but it's true. They all agreed,
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like, but opening day is fun. I'm like, yeah, you'll
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be a dollar hot dogs tomorrow.
Yeah. Everybody's full of everybody's full of
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hope on opening Day. Yeah.
But no, like they'll see trying in
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the stands, like did your team
lose? Like, no, we we
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won, then why are you crying? It's what we do. I feel
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like I feel like there's a Bosom
Buddies reboot in here, but instead of
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it being in an apartment building that's
only for women, it's had some sort
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of mental health crisis center that's not
bad, Like this could be we need
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to write this down like two buddies
out of work looking for somewhere to live
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for free, pretend to be and
our friend ton Bell will be your doctor.
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There you go. We're gonna pitch
this idea to Tone. I think
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we should. That's uh, let's
at least let's at least make some money
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off you guys depression. Yeah,
I mean we'll be you'll spend it because
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you'll still be alive when we're dead. Apparently, Why do you think I
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have such a good mood about it? All of a sudden, we're gonna
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get we're gonna get some email notifications
from about legal zoom of your will is
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ready. Yeah, I learned a
lot from the last really depressed person that
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didn't live very long and didn't didn't
leave me any any of their stuff.
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Oh yeah, so I'm playing it
ahead. No, yeah, that's uh.
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Yeah. You guys have training then, mostly r on the job,
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on the job training. Yeah,
the I I do keep thinking about this
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though, Trey you're telling us,
or Roj you're telling us about which one
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of you told U about the chef
that takes the crap food and makes it
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gourmet? Me? Okay, he
knew the he knew the name of the
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guy. Yeah, so you telling
us about the gourmet chef that's handed fast
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food and has to turn something gourmet
out of it. And then we say,
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okay, well, if this chef
is handed a plate of Trey Trendholm,
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what can he do with this pile
to make it gourmet? And the
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first thought in my head was,
I swear to God he would turn Trey
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into an Italian grinder, because Trey
said, I just want to be just
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just just just make me a sandwich, make me into a sandwich. Yeah,
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so we need we need to start
our own restaurant, and we have
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to name things after our our our
mental health status. So we'll have Trey's
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sick grinder. People think that it's
just sick. We call it something else
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grinder. No, we get essential
a sandwich tray. Yeah, you know
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they you know they love right Trey. Don't you want to be in everybody's
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mouth? And Dan, this is
why you're a master chef, as you've
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taken two heaping piles of neurotic ship
and made it funny what I do?
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Gentlemen, So were you fixed?
I'm okay right now, I'll take that.
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There you go We're Here for You
byde at Is Treehouse plus episode twenty
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four. I feel like at this
point tra should give us five dollars for
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I'll send you a Venbrol request.
Episode ninety one of the tree House is
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coming up next. Can we recover
from all the tears in this episode of
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the Treehouse. Let's find out in
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Welcome inside the treehouse, but this
is treehouse US, which means you are
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deeper inside the treehouse. Thank you
for your five dollars. We appreciate it.
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Normally the treehouse is full of stupid. But I think we've we've been
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presented with a challenge today and I
feel good about it. The challenge is,
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can we make Tray feel better?
Can we take an almost fifty year
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old AA RP carrying man, single
man suffering from anxiety, depression and a
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general malaise, if you will,
can we make him feel better? Tray?
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I think it's important that we start
this episode with me asking the age
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old question. Okay, no,
but you did just make me laugh though,
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because you know I when you did
the tray you know aa arp,
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I'm like, and I guess the
tray aa a a ARP. I was
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gonna say, it's the same thing. When we're on the same page,
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I was gonna say the same thing
was I thought you were just putting it
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out there off the jump it's like
tray aa And I was like, okay,
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well that was a weird way to
start it. And then you hit
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the RP and I'm like, okay, he didn't say the other part and
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then traded it for us, Like
you know one of those doctors that have
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a bunch of letters after their names. It's just an abbreviation for fuck up
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and old. Yeah. I think
if if I if I went to your
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office building and I'm walking into Trey
Trenholm, Comma A A A A A
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r P. Yeah, I'm gonna
look around to see if there's a different
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door, Maybe someone with with a
few less letters, Maybe something with like
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a with a a picture of a
of a sunny sky in the ceiling tile,
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just anything other than A A A
A A r P after Trey Trenholm.
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So Alcoholics Anonymous Association of Retired People
and Anxiety. Yeah, yeah,
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I I just figure there's somebody that's
in A A and A ar P,
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Like that's the guy I want to
advice from. I thought, I thought
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the thing that was gonna make Trey
feel better is the fact that he is
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in a ARP. Therefore he's got
the discounts to look forward to. It's
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what keeps him going, gets those
early birds specials, that really gets him
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out of bed in the morning.
I'm telling you, it's uh, I
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want to I want somebody that's an
AA and AARP to be like, hey,
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here's the deal man. Don't don't
over drink this, but if you
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do, here's the best place to
sleep. This is the best bar bathroom
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to sleep it. Hey, I
would say wedding for the AARP member.
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The best prescription drug plan I've I've
had, Like, yeah, it's a
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it's better than anything. So if
you want cheaper prescription drugs, it's like
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automatic twenty percent off. Yeah.
But I mean, like I had,
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like it's like gold gold r X
or whatever. I had the same thing.
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Yeah, and uh, it wasn't
bad, but the art things better.
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Yeah. I think it's twenty percent
off of like the lowest price they
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can get on like good RX.
And then they not another twenty percent.
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It's fantastic. And then and you
know, I knew it was I knew
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I was getting old. Like I've
said this before. I was. I
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saw the magazine and Luke Perry was
on it. Uh, and I was
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like, yeah, making AARP cool. Yeah, I was like, we
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I'm old. Buddy Dylan's on the
cover of AARB magazine. Yeah, but
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funny funny interestingly enough, Brandon's not
I know, and Andre could have been
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on it when she started the show. Yeah, I think she was an
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ARP member as she was playing a
high school student. I think you're right.
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She was four years younger than the
Walsh dad. I mean, but
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yeah, well that is one positive
with our generation is we're fucking agent better
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than that's trade. Fifty years old. He was Wilford Brimley and flow from
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Alice. It really is an interesting
time to be alive. Uh and and
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and because of that, like I
said, and I'm serious when I say,
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I want to see if there's something
we can do to make you feel
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better. And I don't know if
that's even possible. Maybe just talking about
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some stuff, will you know,
will just ease your conscience or your your
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your physical self. I don't.
I don't know because for those of you,
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because I don't know how it works, Like how does it work?
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Like what is your brain telling you? Like I don't. I have anxiety,
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so I know my brain tells me
I'm dying. That's what that does.
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Depression, I don't know how that
works. I'll start with this.
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Uh. I vividly remember my first
episode of depression. I was ten years
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old. I was in fifth grade
at the sitting in the back of the
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classroom. I couldn't verbalize now,
but I bet I called it, you
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know, later on, I call
it the overwhelming wave of sadness. And
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you said no, I said later
on, later when I could, when
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I could articulate it. Oh yeah, I just imagine the note home to
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your mom from the teacher is very
eloquent, also sad. There's a little
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he's a little dark, but he's
got a great vocabulary. He's gonna be
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a gifted writer, terrible drunk,
gifted writer. But are all gifted writers
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terrible drugs like that. That's Stephen
King drunk hit by a car. So
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that's a special talent. H And
So I say this, and and and
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it's not part of it is childhood
influences and everything else, but and and
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this sounds really dramatic to say,
and and it, but it's it is
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the truth, which is I doubt
there has been a day that has gone
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by since I was ten years old
that I did not think of either killing
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myself or just my demise. Really
every day every day. Wow, Okay,
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And over the last couple of weeks, it's just it's gotten bad.
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Okay, yeah, I Yeah.
My heart goes out to you because I
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don't know how. That's one of
those things where you friends and family,
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kid doing anything about it, right, I mean like even words of wisdom
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or reassurance or none of that would
work. Right. That's so if it
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did, then this wouldn't be the
problem that it is in the world.
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You know, it doesn't hurt.
Yeah, to try no listen, it
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was I can. I confided this
and Dan, you know, with Dan
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yesterday, and it's the first person
I had I had vocalize it, to
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verbalize it, whatever you want to
say, and and and it was it
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was helpful. It's it probably has
started with I feel like Roy Firestone on
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ESPN, I was wondering, who's
break attention? Because sorry, I got
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it. I got it. What
a great reference. Thank you, You're
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welcome. That's why we do this. And I'd like to go ahead check
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off the box that it would that
this is at least help me, or
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actually, maybe I shouldn't check the
box that it's helping. I should check
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the box Underneathan says, well,
it's not hurting. So yeah, it
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probably started a couple of weeks ago
when i've i've I've started noticing, you
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know, uh days he's getting older. Yeah, h and m h it's
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yeah, I'm sorry, it's okay. Is it a combination of things or
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it was like the thinking about one
of the biggest things that that hit me
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is daisies old. I said,
my mom's old, My mom's old.
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Oh the family I got. Yeah, Well, if I can be so
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bold, that's not the only family. Yeah, I'm younger than you,
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so the odds are in my favor
that I'll be around long after you're gone.
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How is that reassuring? That's great
for you. No, it's reassuring
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me because because about his demise has
me thinking about Trade's demise, and it
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also has to be thinking about my
demise. Moment, that was very complimentary.
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You should never be a therapist.
Yeah, there's a reason why there
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are no letters. So long after
you i'm no longer by client, I'll
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still be here. I'll still be
charging you. Uh No, And in
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in somewhat seriousness, I mean that, Yeah, I realized that's that's your
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only family on paper, But there
are there are other family members in your
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life, and that's not always an
apparent thing. It's not always every day
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type of thing. Yeah, because
I'm twenty two hundred miles away. It's
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not like I can, you know, jump through your front door with a
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battering ram and give you a hug
that you reluctantly accept. I can,
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Yeah, I mean, I'm not
going to kick in your door. I'm
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assuming you live in a white neighborhood. So I'm just gonna I'm gonna poltelykno,
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he's he's he's yeah, he's he's
he's white adjacent. Okay, don't
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worry. We know plenty of police
officers that will help you kick in Trey's
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door. Yes, I want I
want their help. I don't want them
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to show up as I'm doing it. So anyway, everyone's getting old year
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old dog is all yeah, and
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is what just started. And and
sometimes it is just one of those things
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that it it starts small and then
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uh and you know, honestly,
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so then that leads to wow,
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and I'm you know, it just
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like fuck y, and you know, and then that's what it's like and
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then it just starts of you know, ah, the real morose just of
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you know, it's probably a very
sound and logical thing that you know at
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the very latest, you know,
seventy five that I just killed myself because
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I'm I'm gonna be alone and uh, I figure I have like one more
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round of dogs left, and then
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about the anxiety of you know,
what age do you start waking up if
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you're alone, and then you you
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and then you're gonna you know,
no one's gonna find you for days.
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That's when I that's my that's in
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my panic attacks. That's and then
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my panic attacks. I'm like,
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it was just crazy. I mean, crazy shit starts going through your head
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like I wouldn't and this is no
bullshit. When I was telling them because
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that I would get them back to
back, so I had that the rare
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uh this is before I started therapy, like I would get them because they
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last about twenty minutes, so I'd
get them for twenty minutes and it would
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stop for about four minutes and I'm
like, oh my attack, okay,
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yeah, and then it would start
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I would dress like if they find
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wear. What was like, are
we talking like a suit or I just
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want to I just just know I
I don't want to Jolas and I was
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like eight, I don't know if
he just wanted to be comfortable. No,
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I just I would have like a
nice you know, if I was
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living in California, it's a nice
T shirt. And I would have my
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favorite blanket and I would have my
jeans, I have my shoes on.
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right, so everybody I know is
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to get to me in time.
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get me, like, oh,
he looks great. That's like what that's
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in my head that I'm not even
missing. I'm not even bullshiting in my
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head. I want to that's a
good look. He's dressed well. As
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they're taking me out of the thing. So that happens to me. It's
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like, you know, I when
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like, well that I don't I'm
not gonna be able to call anybody,
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right because I'm I'm dead, So
uh yeah, even dead I would be
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okay with. It's the what if
you have a stroke and you can't move
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and you're stuck in bed for three
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absolutely, you know, tears me
up. Yeah, mine is uh yeah,
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mine's being dying alone? Was mine? Well, and that's you know
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that again, and that goes to
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everything else. And so it's like
yesterday, I'm like, I'm walking Daisy
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and then all of a sudden,
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the middle of the street just sobbing
and and and and really there's no catalyst
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or anything else. And then I
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anxiety attack and that lasts, you
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my brain is actively trying to kill
me. And then I'm pretty sure
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that Meta is trying to kill me
too, because for some reason, now
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in my algorithm, every fucking video
I see is a goddamn police dog's funeral.
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Oh god, oh no, that's
not right. Fucking Zuckerberg, man,
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jesus, did you post something somewhere
like saying that meta or Facebook and
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Instagram are horrible? Did you?
Did you say it out loud and your
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microphone picked it up. You can't
say it out loud. You can't say
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it. We're all actually screwed.
Now at this point, I'm probably gonna
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start getting him now. Yeah,
that's a. Yeah, that's a.
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So there is there is a fix
for that trade. What you have to
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do is you have to seek out
opposite content porn. Yeah. So if
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you're getting too many police dog funeral
stuff, which is let me go to
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pornhub, gut wrenching. You don't
even need to go to pornhub, which
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is very difficult to do still in
Texas, I think. So what you
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do is instead just go to your
Instagram search and just just type in you
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know, uh, big ass titties, yeah, and just see what comes
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up and then click on some and
then that way the algorithm thinks, oh,
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this is what he's looking for.
Or it doesn't even have to be
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that. It can be cooking videos, just something besides the really sad stuff.
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I get a lot of Gordon Ramsey
videos in between the dog funeral videos.
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Okay, yeah, you have to
be careful because that's a The Gordon
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Ramsey thing is a double edged sword. On one hand, it could be
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fun and funny to watch him scream
at people, uh for feeding him dog
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food. The downside is there's also
the thing where people will send him ugly
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photos or photos of ugly food that
then he criticizes. And some of those
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plates of food are so sad they
may want you. They look like depression
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on a paper plate. I like
that. That may not help them.
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I like the guy who they take
the fast food too, and they're like,
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can you make something gourmet out of
this? Wait? Which one that?
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So there's the New York deli guy
or the Asian guy, the master
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chef, the Iron Chef. I
can't think of his name, or deli
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guy, okay, because they also
do that he was I think he was
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the original Iron chef. And I'm
drawing a blank on his name. And
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he's amazing and his from only the
strong. No, he's the chairman in
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my back and he does that same
thing. The guy, will you know
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his kid will bring him like Chick
fil A, and all of a sudden,
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yeah, thirty minutes later, you
have this amazing five star meal and
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he's deep breaded the chicken and he's
done. That's exactly what it always takes
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the Chick fil A off of it. What I'd like to see that guy
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do is take a plate full of
tray, hand it to the chef and
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say, makes up the gourmet out
of this bier ship. I did h
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when I can you just make a
sandwich? Can you just make something that
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Panera would be happy to have on
the menu. I'm just edible. I
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was tying these du when I went
to my therapist, and I was,
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you know, it's harder to tell
somebody like that's what your thoughts are,
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even though even though that's you know
what I mean, even though they're a
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therapist and their license to listen to
your ship. I did have my She
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was great, she was still as
a dear friend. But when I was
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like, you know, I'm just
worried about, you know, how they're
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gonna find me and all that,
and she goes, and I couldn't dispute
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that she goes, what do you
care? You'll be dead? And I
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go, yeah, but okay,
yep, no, let's she fucking nailed
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it. Yeah, I mean like
I can't do anything after the fact.
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That's like, that's true. And
so that started to help the mindset for
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me. I'm like, Okay,
fuck it, it's gonna happen, and
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uh yeah, I look good and
I'm just gonna be right here and then
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that's it. That's it. And
that's where I would say the where depression
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the problem is is yeah, and
then your depression kicks in and said,
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fuck it, let's do it now, let's do it now. Yeah,
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I got it. That's what that's
the difference, right, Yeah, Okay,
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that makes it. I mean you
I don't understand tright you AA depression,
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anxiety. I don't know how you
were not a comic or a novelist.
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I don't know how you. Tray
went way worse. He did radio
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for about fifteen years. Yeah,
entertainment. Okay, you're in entertainment for
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fifteen years. There you go.
Being in radio RAJ at the level at
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which we were is very much like
being a stand up comic and a novelist
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at the same time. Yeah,
okay, then that's perfect. That makes
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sense. Now, like I'm just
trying to get the uh, the understanding
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of the trend home. It makes
so like, now you make so much
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sense to me, Like now I
do want to come over and just give
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you a hug because now this makes
so much more fucking sense. I'm like,
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I would see you like i would
see you out and about and very
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well put together, and I'm like, that guy's got his ship together and
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everything, Like I would see it
uptown Pub. You come in like to
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get some I think you guys trade
it off like napkins and fucking footh surface
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stuff all the time. And so
i'd see you there and he's i mean,
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always dressed really well, and I'm
like, you know, got the
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g he's a GM here and he's
got you know, when he had when
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you had drove all this stuff.
And I'm like, man, that guy's
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got his ship together. And now
I know you're a total fuck up.
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This is fantastic. Now we're gonna
get along so much better. This is
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a mutual understanding, uh, mutual
anxiety and mental mental health issues. It
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is it is a point of bonding
for me. I would see trade uptown
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Pub and I'm like, this dude
is knocking white privilege out the park.
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And he is killing the white privilege
Gaate like he just and that's the thing.
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Yeah, but you know this is
he wasn't drinking. He just would
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come in like they would, you
know, hey, we ran out of
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this over there, can we grab
this real quick? Or or he would
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bring something to them that they'd run
out of. It was mostly kitchen stuff,
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but he'd walk in and he's,
you know, dressed really well.
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You got the I would see like
slacks and button down and all the all
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that jazz, and I was like, come in and they didn't. He
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didn't have to say a word.
They knew who he was. There was
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the ship. He would stop and
talk to me, make a little small
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talk, and then he was off
doing the gym thing. And I'm like,
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that dude has it together. And
today I've made a new a closer
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friend in Trey. We we've turned
a new leaf. You are just a
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raging, fucking mess and this is
great. Uh So why Embraceyly, We're
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gonna be such good friends. Now
we'll go to ball games and cry together.
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I'm assuming you're in Kansas City watching
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oh yeah, and that was the
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that. When I went to do
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had me do Fox Morning TV or
whatever, yep, and it was Opening
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Day and they're like, are you
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And on their TV, I went, well, you guys are gonna lose.
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I go, I'm from this pesky
place where we just won the World
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Series, so we got to work
on your PR skills when you go to
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They laughed and they went, oh, but it's true. They all agreed,
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like, but opening day is fun. I'm like, yeah, you'll
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be a dollar hot dogs tomorrow.
Yeah. Everybody's full of everybody's full of
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hope on opening Day. Yeah.
But no, like they'll see trying in
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the stands, like did your team
lose? Like, no, we we
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won, then why are you crying? It's what we do. I feel
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like I feel like there's a Bosom
Buddies reboot in here, but instead of
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it being in an apartment building that's
only for women, it's had some sort
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of mental health crisis center that's not
bad, Like this could be we need
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to write this down like two buddies
out of work looking for somewhere to live
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for free, pretend to be and
our friend ton Bell will be your doctor.
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There you go. We're gonna pitch
this idea to Tone. I think
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we should. That's uh, let's
at least let's at least make some money
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off you guys depression. Yeah,
I mean we'll be you'll spend it because
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you'll still be alive when we're dead. Apparently, Why do you think I
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have such a good mood about it? All of a sudden, we're gonna
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get we're gonna get some email notifications
from about legal zoom of your will is
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ready. Yeah, I learned a
lot from the last really depressed person that
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didn't live very long and didn't didn't
leave me any any of their stuff.
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Oh yeah, so I'm playing it
ahead. No, yeah, that's uh.
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Yeah. You guys have training then, mostly r on the job,
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on the job training. Yeah,
the I I do keep thinking about this
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though, Trey you're telling us,
or Roj you're telling us about which one
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of you told U about the chef
that takes the crap food and makes it
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gourmet? Me? Okay, he
knew the he knew the name of the
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guy. Yeah, so you telling
us about the gourmet chef that's handed fast
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food and has to turn something gourmet
out of it. And then we say,
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okay, well, if this chef
is handed a plate of Trey Trendholm,
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what can he do with this pile
to make it gourmet? And the
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first thought in my head was,
I swear to God he would turn Trey
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into an Italian grinder, because Trey
said, I just want to be just
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just just just make me a sandwich, make me into a sandwich. Yeah,
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so we need we need to start
our own restaurant, and we have
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to name things after our our our
mental health status. So we'll have Trey's
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sick grinder. People think that it's
just sick. We call it something else
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grinder. No, we get essential
a sandwich tray. Yeah, you know
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they you know they love right Trey. Don't you want to be in everybody's
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mouth? And Dan, this is
why you're a master chef, as you've
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taken two heaping piles of neurotic ship
and made it funny what I do?
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Gentlemen, So were you fixed?
I'm okay right now, I'll take that.
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There you go We're Here for You
byde at Is Treehouse plus episode twenty
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four. I feel like at this
point tra should give us five dollars for
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I'll send you a Venbrol request.
Episode ninety one of the tree House is
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coming up next. Can we recover
from all the tears in this episode of
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the Treehouse. Let's find out in
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